Disco Meditations 2

Ayuasca

After reading Jeremy Narby's 'The Cosmic Serpent - DNA and the origins of knowledge about three years ago I had always wanted to try participating in an Ayuasca Ceremony. But due to my pretty heavy involvement with alcohol and narcotics at the time, a weekend with a bunch of hippies and new age professionals seemed a little to out of place for me to fit in, in my dionysian state of mind. Give it a few years, an aging body that let's you know there is a limit to the amount of stuff u can sweat out by sitting around and doing nothing and - if you don't get of your ass and do something you will bore yourself to death and die- is just one recurring mantra besides many. Thankfully I discovered that I am still exited to run around like a little kid, playing tennis, skateboarding and even picking up the weights lately to get ready for some surfing this summer. So suddenly I am fairly clean, still a little cloudy in the head because the corner bar is just a little to close to home, but drug abuse seems to be a word from the past and the drinking is civilized if somewhat regular. Still missing the kick off, having the perfect morning

every morning kind of thing going on. So along comes Joao and offers me a chance to participate in this genuine ceremony upstate where I might get my intentions evaluated by the plant and find some solutions with the medicine if I open myself up enough to let some healing happen. OK. So this is what has happened in a nutshell:

I spent the most blissful time at the Waterfall house. 

the medicine is working for sure and I am 

totally at peace with who I am and where I am at.

I feel clear headed, even though I am drunk with 

the Love of Life.

The following morning I had the most peaceful 

conversation with

my father, something that I have not been able to do

since I am a little child, it was almost like the plant had 

talked to both of us. 

I wish there was an express track to initiation

because I realized that what i would really like to do

is be part of the healing side of things if I do this again.

It sounds a little preposterous I guess,

 I don';t think I need to take more medicine to get visions

or to hallucinate. i would like to feel what it's like

to be as ‘sober’ as I was and to be comforting people,

with music, with being there. I felt like I was watching

a really good show and I wanted to be part of it, 

not as a spectator , but as a participant,

 who helps make things right when they get out of balance.

I also felt like I need to do some Yoga ;-)

I found

that if i use my gifts, the smiles and thank you's 

I get are more rewarding than any kind of intoxication

a drug could bring me. That seems to include the 

medicine, so the plant refused to make me drunk or hallucinating because it was telling me that the high I was looking for was being high on life. Unlike a lot of those around me, I did not need that much healing. most of it I had taken care of myself in the last few years. u sit and meditate in a cave and smoke marihuana seeds and coca leaves, I guess u can call that an initiation if you use your time well. I will get back to the experience and would be interested what you think about looking for answers in plants that are supposed to communicate with us on DNA level.