The Biodrux Guineapig Blogject

The Biodrux Guineapig Blogject


Day 1 I’ll do anything for free drugs. Especially if they are supposed to alleviate depression, lethargy and irritability.With no side-effects. For that prospect I will whore myself out to the newest pusher of natural mood enhancers for a free sample and then write about the experience on EVOLVER. If that proposition sounds almost as exciting to you as having direct shipments of natural product arriving on your doorstep, poppies from Kabul and Coca leaves from Medellin for example, with the prospect of reviewing the effects in writing in a public forum, then we are on the same page. They recommend 4 capsules a day, 3 times daily and I think I will trust them on that and not eat the whole shipment at once to see if it will make me euphoric or something. They promise to alleviate the Lethargy and here I am, typing away with the speed of all my ten fingers dancing excitedly about my keyboard, not bad. And i’ve only had one dosis so far since I opened the pill-bottle.That might just be a pavlovian effect. Seing a bottle and all.
The Blogject comes in handy to document the final stages of my fixing up my body and mind from a drug and alcohol- fueled rollercoaster ride that lasted for ..., hmmmm?
Can’t really remember, but about a decade.
The only bad habit I did not have was smoking tabacco. The only one I am planning to
keep is praising Yah with a regular sacrifice of a five fingered leaf or two.
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Day 3 of my herbal cleansing run and I gotta say, I have not been dissapointed!
While in the evening of the first day the pills arrived I was still in a somewhat beat and self-defeatist mode, struggling to defend my inability to end procratination to Drew, who had come to get me psyched about making ‘my’ record. I’ve kind of- not quite given up on that idea and don’t really feel like explaining why, but I also kind of don’t ever give up on things, I just change my persective and keep hoping soething will come of nopthing as long as u do nothing to stop nothing from happening. U dig?
This morning I felt a definite sensation of morning-adrenalin hitting me after getting up, having my four capsules and drinking some water. Well, I got the flash when I picked up the guitar to play Aguas de Marco by Jobim a couple times over. Ialso noticed a different clarity when I was reading a book yesterday, somehow I feel more focussed and am able to follow up on ideas more concisely. Like getting on the phone after deciding to have a recording session, something that seems logical to anyone, but does not always flow with a manic-depressive artist state of mind based in self destructive
behaviour and self loathing. Which btw reminds me that it is time to stop blogging and get back to making phone calls. U dig?
coming next week - Biodrux Leiztin- legal herbal extacy?

Bikram Yoga

This morning I went to check out Bikram Yoga on Allen Street to see if I could cure my aching neck with a little stretching and heat. My friends Valentina and Manuela recommended that I come along for a session some time, since to them Bikram is like the best thing since sliced bread. Tricia, the Lady running the joint is supercool and down to earth and without any pretense.The staff hooked me up with towels and a yoga mat and off we went to start the first few asanas. It was intense, to say the least, but not unbearably strenuous.Until we got about an hour into the session and I realized that the class was going to last longer than that. The last 20 minutes were tough even though the exercises we did in the end required a lot less coordination and balance than the first run of swan-poses that seemed to last forever and then a little longer after the sun hit’s the horizon, effendi, without water this desert is uncrossable, I hope you have a camel, think I might be hallucinating, I am a frog, I am a scorpion in the desert sand argh, no, a locust, no a lotus, just breathe thru your nose.....
After an hour and a half I finally stumbled out and enjoyed the ‘cool’ air outside, where the hottest day of the summer was scorching up the city. They play mellow worldmusic and funny queer bar jazz in a superchill mix in the lobby and it really fits with the feeling of having walked out of the desert with the help of a Mad Max style Amazon that makes sure you suffer but won’t let you die before the movie is over.
Manu had promised that this was almost as good as doing an ayuasca ceremony and I must admit that I’ve had a few pangs of joy going down my spine today, must have sweated out a lot of toxins in the session. I feel light and refreshed, even though I am somewhat exhausted.
I don’t think I’d do ayuasca more than 2 or three times a year, but this is definitely habit-forming-worthy. I will definitely keep going and try to incorporate stretching into my workout routine, the benefit’s can’t be ingnored..
Bikram Yoga’s deal is a introductory week for 21 bucks for a week of unlimited classes or their summer special, 30 days for 30 bucks, it makes the heat a lot more bearable, after you bear it well. I am nbot getting anything out of this, I am merely promoting this place because i liked it. U dig?
Thanks Manu, Valentina and Maike for sharing your lovely little spot with me.

http://bikramyogales.com

Carl Craig at watertaxi beach

Headed up to 34 th street to catch the free watertaxi to meet Mat and check out Carl Craig last night. I was the first on board so it took a minute until we pulled of the dock but once we got goin the free ride was worth the wait.
Unfortunately I can't say that I am to exiced about Water taxi beach any more. U can't Smoke up because there is so much security and they won't let u come back in if you'd try to step out for a toke. Boring!
A bunch of squares hanging put, tourists, bridge and tunnel, jersey housewifes whose biggest aspiration is to be on a daytime tv show some day.
As redundant as the music seemed to me, Mat pointed out that this type of electonica was hard to produce because it actually grooved. Whatever he meant was lost on me, it would probably all have made sense had I had some shrooms before sitting down under the fluorescinating palmttees facing the new York midtown skyline.
I want to become more minimalist in my approach to music, as my minimalist mentor mat the mad waves inventor is recommending. At least that is easier than fattening up my sound. It's always easier to loose stuff than to gain it. Unless u are trying to loose pounds and drinking beer every night. Well in that case it's all in the I of the Bierholder.

This just in: based on my post about ayuasca I got chosen to become a blogger on alternative health products for the community building evolver network. I was at the evolver townhall meeting a few weeks ago and I must say I am happy to be considered qualified to voice my opinion among so many visionary thinkers and writers.
Check out evolver.net and look out for upcoming blogs on my experience with biodrux! Just love to experiment! FrankenTillzkin!

the end of WIFI as I knew it

My downstairs neighbor moved out this last weekend and with her computer went the beautifully unprotected WIFI she was providing for half a year, a move that finally lands me where I wanted to be at all this time: free of the always inviting option to piss away time by surfing the web following no particular thread at all and pathologically checking e-mail even though nobody really communicates with me that way.
It’s nice. kinda like going back to Germany and realizing that if I can’t get New YORK GRADE kind bud in my godforsaken little hometown, then I am pretty happy without.
But put an ounce of Humboldt County grown Sour Diesel in front of me back here in the City and that shit is gone in a few hours.
When I cancelled my DSL last year I was doing it to spite Verizon (like it would matter
to them) and I was determinded to stick it out until I would find a friendly ISP without endless waiting in line, listening to Kenny G or Naje, not to mention the unfriendly, dumb-as-bread and condescending people that would pick up the other end of the line when I eventually got thru to somebody after 2 hours waiting. I hate Verizon. and AT&T. and Time Warner Cable....
Anytime I see one of their trucks, I wanna puke. But then I realized that there is NO alternative. U wanna get connected, u will deal with some big monolithic monster of a company, meant to make shareholders money and hiring people who don’t cost more than lab-mice to replace when they don’t fullfill their quota. So I decided to go cold turkey and try to make my way into cyberspace via free access points at cafes and maybe a stray signal here and there. Then I realized that I had a neighbor who did not password-proitect her WIFI and I was back internet-junking like I never quit. So this is attempt number 2. Or maybe phase 2. It’s not so much about saving money, but a social attempt to make my need to connect get me out of the house, instead of keeping me there and maybe also to try to focuss my daddling time into a creative and pro-active
participation instead of just consuming an endless flow of information that I would not care for if it wasn’t right there, yelling at me to be noticed. let’s see how long I will last.
PS this last week I finished reading two novels. Hardcover. Real Books. Nice.