The Biodrux Guineapig Blogject

The Biodrux Guineapig Blogject


Day 1 I’ll do anything for free drugs. Especially if they are supposed to alleviate depression, lethargy and irritability.With no side-effects. For that prospect I will whore myself out to the newest pusher of natural mood enhancers for a free sample and then write about the experience on EVOLVER. If that proposition sounds almost as exciting to you as having direct shipments of natural product arriving on your doorstep, poppies from Kabul and Coca leaves from Medellin for example, with the prospect of reviewing the effects in writing in a public forum, then we are on the same page. They recommend 4 capsules a day, 3 times daily and I think I will trust them on that and not eat the whole shipment at once to see if it will make me euphoric or something. They promise to alleviate the Lethargy and here I am, typing away with the speed of all my ten fingers dancing excitedly about my keyboard, not bad. And i’ve only had one dosis so far since I opened the pill-bottle.That might just be a pavlovian effect. Seing a bottle and all.
The Blogject comes in handy to document the final stages of my fixing up my body and mind from a drug and alcohol- fueled rollercoaster ride that lasted for ..., hmmmm?
Can’t really remember, but about a decade.
The only bad habit I did not have was smoking tabacco. The only one I am planning to
keep is praising Yah with a regular sacrifice of a five fingered leaf or two.
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Day 3 of my herbal cleansing run and I gotta say, I have not been dissapointed!
While in the evening of the first day the pills arrived I was still in a somewhat beat and self-defeatist mode, struggling to defend my inability to end procratination to Drew, who had come to get me psyched about making ‘my’ record. I’ve kind of- not quite given up on that idea and don’t really feel like explaining why, but I also kind of don’t ever give up on things, I just change my persective and keep hoping soething will come of nopthing as long as u do nothing to stop nothing from happening. U dig?
This morning I felt a definite sensation of morning-adrenalin hitting me after getting up, having my four capsules and drinking some water. Well, I got the flash when I picked up the guitar to play Aguas de Marco by Jobim a couple times over. Ialso noticed a different clarity when I was reading a book yesterday, somehow I feel more focussed and am able to follow up on ideas more concisely. Like getting on the phone after deciding to have a recording session, something that seems logical to anyone, but does not always flow with a manic-depressive artist state of mind based in self destructive
behaviour and self loathing. Which btw reminds me that it is time to stop blogging and get back to making phone calls. U dig?
coming next week - Biodrux Leiztin- legal herbal extacy?